I Cannot Go Back

I cannot go back. I'm not talking about meetings. I have no desire to go to meetings. I'm talking about not being able to go back to the hypocritical religion scene. The Bible has commandments in them that need to be believed. And if I'm going to compromise to make friends, or attend some fellowship gatherings, or impress people who don't care about me anyway, then what's the point of saying "I have faith in God."?

So what I'm saying is that I cannot go back...to the way of following a system and going along with popular beliefs just for the sake of consoling myself that I'm "Christian" and living a hypocritical life of not having faith in God.

I cannot go back to the place of saying "Uh huh" in agreement when I don't. I cannot go back to going along with people when I don't agree. And not only that, I'm going forward with reading my Bible more. Reading to understand. And if I don't understand, then I'm going to ask questions. And if you don't like my questions, then don't ask...but remember, I'm not going back. If you expect me to believe the lies of your local fellowship group, then forget it, but remember...I'm not going back to that way of life. I've been a worker, and painted my share of bullseyes. It's emptiness. Have you ever been an impressive person to some, but a hollow-feeling sad hypocrite inside? It's emptiness.

I'm impressed with some records I've read of some people. Let me share them with you.

Deu 13:11 And all Israel shall hear, and fear, and shall do no more any such wickedness as this is among you.
Deu 13:12 If thou shalt hear say in one of thy cities, which the LORD thy God hath given thee to dwell there, saying,
Deu 13:13 Certain men, the children of Belial, are gone out from among you, and have withdrawn the inhabitants of their city, saying, Let us go and serve other gods, which ye have not known;
Deu 13:14 Then shalt thou enquire, and make search, and ask diligently; and, behold, if it be truth, and the thing certain, that such abomination is wrought among you;
Deu 13:15 Thou shalt surely smite the inhabitants of that city with the edge of the sword, destroying it utterly, and all that is therein, and the cattle thereof, with the edge of the sword.
Deu 13:16 And thou shalt gather all the spoil of it into the midst of the street thereof, and shalt burn with fire the city, and all the spoil thereof every whit, for the LORD thy God: and it shall be an heap for ever; it shall not be built again.
Deu 13:17 And there shall cleave nought of the cursed thing to thine hand: that the LORD may turn from the fierceness of his anger, and shew thee mercy, and have compassion upon thee, and multiply thee, as he hath sworn unto thy fathers;
Deu 13:18 When thou shalt hearken to the voice of the LORD thy God, to keep all his commandments which I command thee this day, to do that which is right in the eyes of the LORD thy God.
1Ki_14:8 And rent the kingdom away from the house of David, and gave it thee: and yet thou hast not been as my servant David, who kept my commandments, and who followed me with all his heart, to do that only which was right in mine eyes;
1Ki_15:5 Because David did that which was right in the eyes of the LORD, and turned not aside from any thing that he commanded him all the days of his life, save only in the matter of Uriah the Hittite.
1Ki_15:11 And Asa did that which was right in the eyes of the LORD, as did David his father.
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